I don't do doctors. They are the bearers of bad news. They poke and prod and a lot of the times they just guess. I've gone to the emergency once before. Which was a big deal. I pretty much have to think the worst is happening. Last night was the first time since then. 1:30am, I finally got fed up and went in. The problem has been happening a lot lately, but I've ignored it. But last night when I tried to play my guitar, and couldn't, I decided that was it. I can handle numbness for the most part. But not being able to function properly to play something I've been re-inspired to do, I can't deal with that. Because then I also thought, what if it gets so bad I can't pick up a pencil and draw? That would be even worse yet. Being able to create art and music is a big deal to me, its part of who I am. I went to emergency, the doctor gave me a couple ideas of what he thinks it most likely is, and the worst case scenario to keep an eye out for. He figures I have cubital tunnel syndrome, which is a nerve compression problem behind the elbow. I've read up on the symptoms, and they are pretty bang on. If it persists, surgery is necessary to release pressure on the nerve. Normally I would say, no thank you. But this option is SO much better than his worse case scenario, which is MS (multiple sclerosis). Now, I am a HUGE worrier. So first thing I did this morning when I got home at 4am, I researched MS symptoms, I found out I have a lot of those too. But now that I have read about CTS, Im going to try and ignore that he even brought up MS. TRY. He also thought when he first read my chart that they were stroke symptoms, so glad he didn't make that an option too. Had that scare the last time I went in. Another reason I don't like doctors/hospitals, my face went numb, so I was taken to emerge in Bow Island, no doctors in town, so they gave me codeine and told me to sleep it off. Stroke/Bells Palsey symptoms and they don't check me out at all. I obviously didn't have either, but it still pisses me off that they can just write people off when they aren't even the doctor.
I've just kind of rambled, but Im tired. I just hope it goes away completely, because I really want to play my guitar.